Making

I think a lot about making. What is it to make? Why am I putting more stuff in this already crowded world? Is what I want to make important enough to be made? What makes it important? Is there anything in my life that is important enough to be commented on or worth subjecting other people to it? What if nobody ever sees my work? Is it still important that I make it just for myself? and still if it is important enough, Do I want it bad enough? "Do I want it bad enough?" was a question that Jim would ask me in art school and only now do I really understand what he meant. Making is hard and requires a certain discipline and generally very little gratification from the outside world. Is it enough for it to be just therapeutic for me or for me just to want to make something beautiful, something I like to look at? Maybe. Maybe it is. Maybe it is important and maybe I do want it bad enough. I need to at least find out what it is.